It would seem that I’ve been sick for ever…

so much for the first day of spring… It’s snowing out now and it snowed on the first day of spring too. I’ve decided to only look to the calendar for days and not seasons. This has been a super shitty start of spring. I’m also sick again. I think i’ve been sick every three weeks. there’s always one or two days when i’m well…I get all hopeful and think that I may actually get to stay better….but then no. I work with two of the most sickly groups. Children, who seem to have hand-washing phobias, and old people, who for some reason spend as much time as I do being sick. It never seems to end with me. I feel like I will be sick for ever…or at least until it kills me. I feel like my health is direclty linked to the weather. the shittier the weather is the worse I feel. at some point I am going to have to get better.

I also have been feeling less creative. I think that has alot to do with my health as well. I’m always happier when i’m creating something. I’ve had a drawing i’ve been meaning to finish that has been watching me for the last like 2 months. And somehow I havent gotten up the energy to do it.

I hate being sick. I feel so…so…blech.

I really dont know what to say but I love this.

My only complaint thus far about wordpress vs. Blogger, is that on wordpress when I find things that make me remotly happy I cant add them to my side bar…in fact I dont even know how to change the flicker to my own pictures! which is very tragic as I’m my own biggest fan and I love my pictures. but anyway, I just found this weird Tokyo clock thing that makes me so many different levels of happy! I will give the website so you can go and watch it! I’ve been sitting here watching for like half hour now as i’m just drawn into it watching these chicks dance…that and the music.

If you want one and can post it with little stress( shakes fist at wordpress) then go here: http://www.uniqlo.jp/uniqlock/

Learn

Learn to love, as it is the greatest thing you could ever do.

Learn to live, as it is the only thing you really have to do.

Learn to lie, as you never know when you may have to.

Learn to forgive, as it’s never good to hold a gruge.

Learn to forget, as it is this that heals all wounds.

Learn to cry, as it helps the soul renew.

Learn to laugh, as it helps your soul feel young.

Learn to dance, It’s always a good thing to do.

Learn to play, it always puts your life back in place.

Learn to care, just because you can.

Learn to relax, just because you can.

Learn to teach, so you can help other people see how smart they are.

Learn to preach, so you can tell other people how smart you are.

Learn to observe, it’s easy to see things and hard to see them for what they are.

Learn to be, as that is just a thing you really have to do.

Learn, because you want to.

Dolla’, Dolla’ bill y’all.

I work in three different jobs. However, I’m thinking I want to get out of one of them. I work in the markville mall (as i’ve stated before) but I don’t want to push tube tops to toddlers anymore. I want to do something that will still make me money without me feeling so corrpurate whore like. I wanted to work somewhere like home depot, where I wouldnt actually have to know anything I would just have to ring in some 2 by 4’s and a couple nails. I could do that!

I also seem to be sending beyone my means… I dont know how I keep doing it but it happens everytime. I managed to get to the end of the week and be short. I spend so much on gas all the time. I know I do alot of driving and I understand that gas is really really really exspencive but I need to make some sort of moeny plan so I can get my cash together and actually do something I with it instead of fueling my mini van. Maybe it’s time to get a smaller car…but honestly, if I can hardly afford gas what are the chances I can buy a new car?

I think it’s time we go back to the barter system. I will trade you a my sister for a hybrid!?